Late Night
Monday Aug 9th @ 12:03 AM - The King House
Bill is lying there sleepless. The day, the night, the last two
weeks continually loop through his mind, and through every memory
there's TK. It's a roller coaster ride that is frightening and, at the
same time, exhilarating. "ppsstt, Bill you awake? ... ppsssttt, can you
hear me?" Bill sits halfway up in his bed and sees that TK is at the
screen door off the balcony. "Todd, I'm coming." he whispers. "Yeah, you
musta latched the door." As soon as Bill opens the door. he grabs TK and
hugs him. "TK, what are you doing here? We're gonna get caught, your ma
..." "Shh!, Get some shoes on, let's take a walk."
In silence, the two walk down the stairs to the first floor porch
where they hop off and head for the fields, after TK has grabbed a
blanket. Just after they get beyond the line of wind breaking trees, TK
stops and pulls Bill to him, and slowly and almost tentatively, kisses
Bill. But Bill can sense, that there was something wrong, "TK, what is
it? Are you all right?" Todd just shakes his head, not saying a word, he
leads on holding on to Bill's hand. They eventually get to their little
'crater' and TK spreads out the blanket. "Bill, would you please sit
down." "What's this all about?' Asks Bill with the worry obvious in his
voice,
TK starts, "I've been laying down thinking since I
went to bed. I
wanted to be all fucking noble, and tell you that if you wanted to see
other ... guys when you got back home that would be okay with me." "You
can't mean that! How c..." "Please. .... please let me get through this.
As I said I wanted to say that shit, but that's what it is shit. ...
It's not okay! Fuck being noble! or understanding! or anything else! ...
I want you to myself. I can't share you. ... So, I guess it's going to
be up to you. ..." In the bright star light, TK can tell Bill's cheeks
are glistening. Bill says trying to hold back, "How come you don't know
how I feel? .... " his voice breaks with a sob, "Don't you know that ...
you're all I got?"
"Bill, please don't, ... I ... I ... am so sorry. ...
I know how
you feel now. ... But suppose you found someone ... better?" Bill comes
back, "Listen, asshole, I'm not going to be fucking looking for anyone
better! THEY DON'T EXIST!!!" After a moment of silence, Bill continues,
"Todd, we'll have problems. ... Big problems, but the only way its gonna
fall apart is if we give up, ... and I can't do that, ... I just can't
do that." The are both looking at each other, Bill puts his arms around
TK. Todd gently touches Bill's cheek. TK can see that Bill is about to
say something, but stops him, putting his finger to Bill's lips, TK
says "I love you, and I always will." "Me too." They start
kissing, ...
"Practice???" "Or maybe you wanna work on
technique???" they start
laughing for a while. ...
@ 6:30 AM
"Betty! come here." Grams says quietly, "Check
what's on the porch
swing." When Todd's mom, goes to look, she sees Bill and TK sleeping in
each others arms, the man in her life, and the man in his life, looking
for all the world like school boys.
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